I've realised something I kind of knew.

I feel empty. (That was not my realisation)

And no, I don't want to talk about it. Yet in so many ways do. I don't think I could explain.

I feel sad.

Am I only a reflection of you? Can I only give what I'm given?

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Why don't I say what I feel. Why is that so hard.

I don't want to inconvience. To make others unhappy. Why don't I say what I feel? Because I'm afraid I'll be rejected? Or because I'm afraid I won't be, but it will make the other unhappy, and cause resentment?


I deleted this from my LJ. I'm not ready for some people to read that yet. Maybe some day people will read what I've put here.